Dear Ovaries, You SUCK.

I want to blog but I haven't many words today. Just a few photos for you and how my morning has started off.

Temp rise (nice big one too)= Me jumping out of bed all excited b/c that my friends is a  GOOD sign of pregnancy. I decided to whip out an expensive test, not gonna lie I was feeling pretty confident.

A few minutes later...

                      (don't judge my bed head!)

Not pregnant.

Now let me say this, I would have *MUCH* rather woken up and got a low temp and feel excited that AF (aunt flow aka my period) was on its way. That too would be an accomplishment for my craptastic ovaries, to actually start my period on my own. But nooooooo I just had to get a beautiful temp rise to tease me and then bammmmm BFN (big fat negative).

So let's talk next steps. This summer I'm dedicating to getting my body and health in tip top shape! I'm only 6 lbs away from my goal weight of 125. I have cut out dairy since the first of June (boy do I miss my cheese) and already feel awesome. I have more energy and don't feel so bloated. I will keep doing acupuncture and I'm going to start my herbal teas to help bring AF along (hopefully). I'm already on CD 55 so I really hope the tea does its job at helping me start a new cycle.

Also, I'm going to find a RE (reproductive endocrinologist aka fertility specialist) and have a HSG done to make sure my tubes are clear and everything is fine there ( here is a link if you're curious what a HSG procedure is). Mr. Muffin is going to have to have a SA (semen analysis) to make sure his boys can swim. He is not looking forward to this lol. I remind him of all the crap that I'm having to do and he stops complaining pretty darn fast :)

I continue to pray and believe God that everything will work out. I believe all things work together for my good in His time. As a Christian, it's very hard going through IF. You have so many frustrations and doubts and fears and worries. It becomes overwhelming and then you just want to fall into His arms and cry. He holds my world inside his hands....I just wish He'd share :)

Ok, I lied. I said I didn't have much to say but you know me better than that. I always have plenty to say. Today I'm going on a 15 mile bike ride and regain my focus. I'll post soon (with pics of course) about my herbal tea. Have a lovely day friends.

Just a quick update

I still have CH's so that's good news. I'm not getting my hopes up though, temps are lowish but still above the cover line.

If I truly did ovulate, I would be 8 DPO (days past O) and I'm on CD (cycle day) 48. I don't really know what to think of my chart, any honest input would be appreciated.

Today is going to be a great day...a hot one too! Have a good weekend people :)