Went great!!! This time I showed my Dr my chart (via my phone which he that was the coolest thing ever lol) and he said that because I may have ovulated, we weren't going to treat IF/PCOS this time. We focused on stress, worry, keeping my blood flowing properly (if I O'd) for implantation and digestion. I laid on my stomach and he put about 20 needles in this time. Starting on my neck alllllllll the way down to my ankles. He cranked up the heat and I listened to my Chinese rock and roll and R-E-L-A-X-E-D!
Before I told him about my possible ovulation, he brought me a goodie bag FULL of leaves, twigs, dried roots and fruit.This was my herbal tea :) I was so excited, it all looked...exactly what I would want to put in my body. All organic, non-toxic and it was so pretty.
I'll talk more about the tea (how I brew it, store it, drink it, and how it works) later, I'll start it next week if my temps drop and I didn't O. I'll start drinking the tea in hopes to regulate my cycles. If I did O then I'll wait for my period to start and then I'll start the tea then. If I am pregnant...well that's just a whole new ball game folks :)
My next appointment is on Thursday so until next time...
Our attempt to make a baby with PCOS and Severe Male Factor IF...est 9/2010
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Please be real please be real...
Crosshairs=ovulation
This has happened twice since first TTC and both times have been a fake out. I'm not getting my hopes up because my sleeping has been sort of weird the past few days. I will say though that I don't think I've ever had temps this high-this could be a good sign. Fingers crossed and believe God that I actually did O.
Hope everyone has a great Memorial Day, let's not forget the true meaning of this day. I'm off to eat pancakes that J has so lovingly prepared :)
This has happened twice since first TTC and both times have been a fake out. I'm not getting my hopes up because my sleeping has been sort of weird the past few days. I will say though that I don't think I've ever had temps this high-this could be a good sign. Fingers crossed and believe God that I actually did O.
Hope everyone has a great Memorial Day, let's not forget the true meaning of this day. I'm off to eat pancakes that J has so lovingly prepared :)
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Acupuncture review
It's hard to even begin explaining how much I loved my acupuncture appointment. I searched and searched all over town for a specific acupuncturist-I was looking for a DOM (Dr of Oriental Medicine). These Dr's are the real deal boys and girls. I found out that in the state of Kansas, any chiropractor can study acptr for 100 hours and become licensed. A DOM studies for at least 4,000 hours. I finally found my DOM and his little clinic is literally within walking or at least bike riding distance. How cool is that??!! My obsession with finding a DOM all started from this book.
The Infertility Cure by Randine Lewis. My acupuncturist actually studied at the same place that Randine studied. Also like Randine, my doctor spent some time in China and is also a licensed Herbalist. Now this may all seem a little "hippie" to some of you. Well you're probably right lol, but for me, I would rather spend my time and money on healing my body naturally and getting my blood flowing naturally then just masking the problem with Clomid. I do consider myself to be a sort of "natural/zen/hippie" person. Not too much though, I mean I shower and don't have dreads, but I am all about "pure" things. I'm not saying I'll never take Clomid but for at least 4-6 months I am going to do acptr and take herbs and brew all kinds of crazy teas and really try to cut out so many processed foods.
So let's talk about my appointment! I was very nervous, I wasn't nervous about the needles (which I'm sure is most people's biggest fear and reason for not going to an acupuncturist), I was actually nervous about talking about my reproductive and IF issues with a MALE! I talk to J about this stuff but I never ever ever have had a male dr, not even just a family practitioner. For some reason I've never been comfortable with a male Dr. touching me or talking about personal things. Nothing has ever happened to me (as far as I know) that has caused me to have this fear and anxiety. I was also nervous that he wouldn't know much about PCOS/IF even though his website and card said he specialized in OB/GYN, pregnancy, fertility and IF. I, of course, felt that he wouldn't be able to relate because he is a male.
I was so wrong, he was extremely sensitive and caring and I felt very comfortable talking to him about my struggles. I have been to so many doctor appointments and I have never had anyone sit down and talk to me about my health and well being for as long as he did. He gave me the most delicious hot jasmine green tea as we visited. I could have just smelled that stuff all day-so good. He asked a lot of questions-weird ones too like am I ever short of breathe & do I have pain in my right side of my body & do I have ringing in my ears. Yes to all of them, then he asked about my digestion-EEEEEKKK!!! HOLD THE TRAIN!
I have always had a horrible digestive system.*TMI* When I was a kid all until I was about 19, I only pooped about 4-5 times...a MONTH. Swear. It was awful, it would hurt so bad too. At the time I nannied for a Dr and I told her about my digestive problems and she urged me to seek medical attention and eat more fiber. I became obsessed with things of fiber and reading labels on everything I bought at the store. My digestive system was getting better and I was pooping about 2 times a week. That was progress folks! Then I went to a gastrologist because I was having really bad stomach pains and still dealing with constipation and diarrhea. Hey...it is possible to have both! She said I had IBS and there really isn't much they can do, I just have to watch what I eat, keep a food journal of what triggers my IBS and eat lots of green veggies and drink tons of water.
So that's been about 2 years and I have gotten better. I try to avoid fast greasy food, soda, cheese and I can not ever eat at On The Border. This place causes me to be in the bathroom for hours, even thinking about it makes me feel sick lol. I still don't have as many bowel movements as a "healthy" person but I have improved a lot. So I say all of that to say this. My acupuncturist said that my body is causing things to be "stagnant", things are not moving and flowing as they should. I shook my little head in agreement trying to remember the last time I pooped and the fact that I have not started one single period on my own since stopping birth control. He said my blood isn't flowing smoothly and he feels that stress/worry/anxiety is a huge reason why I'm having digestive and menstrual problems.
So we started the acupuncture, he put about 20 needles in me. I didn't feel a thing. Ok, that's not entirely true, I felt it a few times but it only felt like a small scratch. NO pain at all though. It was extremely relaxing and soothing. He focused on my spleen which is where worry is at. I was all about this-please extract the worry :) Once the needles were in I laid there for about 30 minutes and just closed my eyes and didn't think about anything. It was dark, just a little lamp on, warm and relaxed to "Chinese rock and roll" music as he called it.
Once I was finished, he took the needles out and we discussed herbs and brewing my own teas. I was very excited about this. He assured me that it would not taste good and probably will make my house smell too. I said that was fine with me. He wants me to come back twice a week for about 4-6 weeks. He said it would cost $80 a week. I told him that as much I wish I could, I couldn't afford that, who can??!?! So he asked me what would work for me and I compromised at $50-this also included my herbs and teas.
So here is my game plan. I feel like right now I really need to get my stress/worry/anxiety and digestive system in order. This is very important to my overall health. This should help also with getting my blood flowing and hopefully regulating my cycles and *fingers crossed* ovulation. For the months of June and July I am going to go a couple of times a month and start my herbs/teas. In August (if I'm not pregnant by then) I'm going to really jump in and we will focus on fertility. I remind myself that I am not infertile, just imbalanced. J and I have decided this is something that we really want to work and understand it will take effort and smart spending on our part. So from August to October we will focus greatly on getting me pregnant.
If by the end of Oct I'm still not pregnant, I'll most likely quit and just take a break from it all. Maybe by December or January 2012 I will start 50 mg of Clomid. Sorry this was so long, just wanted to give you a detailed summary. It was awesome and I can't wait to go back. My next appointment will be on Tuesday the 31st. I'll get my herbs and teas then and I'll let you know how that goes. I feel like I need a witch hat and big black kettle :) Thanks for all the well wishes and if you have any questions for me please feel free to ask!
Here is a brief list of some conditions that Acupuncture effectively treats:
The Infertility Cure by Randine Lewis. My acupuncturist actually studied at the same place that Randine studied. Also like Randine, my doctor spent some time in China and is also a licensed Herbalist. Now this may all seem a little "hippie" to some of you. Well you're probably right lol, but for me, I would rather spend my time and money on healing my body naturally and getting my blood flowing naturally then just masking the problem with Clomid. I do consider myself to be a sort of "natural/zen/hippie" person. Not too much though, I mean I shower and don't have dreads, but I am all about "pure" things. I'm not saying I'll never take Clomid but for at least 4-6 months I am going to do acptr and take herbs and brew all kinds of crazy teas and really try to cut out so many processed foods.
So let's talk about my appointment! I was very nervous, I wasn't nervous about the needles (which I'm sure is most people's biggest fear and reason for not going to an acupuncturist), I was actually nervous about talking about my reproductive and IF issues with a MALE! I talk to J about this stuff but I never ever ever have had a male dr, not even just a family practitioner. For some reason I've never been comfortable with a male Dr. touching me or talking about personal things. Nothing has ever happened to me (as far as I know) that has caused me to have this fear and anxiety. I was also nervous that he wouldn't know much about PCOS/IF even though his website and card said he specialized in OB/GYN, pregnancy, fertility and IF. I, of course, felt that he wouldn't be able to relate because he is a male.
I was so wrong, he was extremely sensitive and caring and I felt very comfortable talking to him about my struggles. I have been to so many doctor appointments and I have never had anyone sit down and talk to me about my health and well being for as long as he did. He gave me the most delicious hot jasmine green tea as we visited. I could have just smelled that stuff all day-so good. He asked a lot of questions-weird ones too like am I ever short of breathe & do I have pain in my right side of my body & do I have ringing in my ears. Yes to all of them, then he asked about my digestion-EEEEEKKK!!! HOLD THE TRAIN!
I have always had a horrible digestive system.*TMI* When I was a kid all until I was about 19, I only pooped about 4-5 times...a MONTH. Swear. It was awful, it would hurt so bad too. At the time I nannied for a Dr and I told her about my digestive problems and she urged me to seek medical attention and eat more fiber. I became obsessed with things of fiber and reading labels on everything I bought at the store. My digestive system was getting better and I was pooping about 2 times a week. That was progress folks! Then I went to a gastrologist because I was having really bad stomach pains and still dealing with constipation and diarrhea. Hey...it is possible to have both! She said I had IBS and there really isn't much they can do, I just have to watch what I eat, keep a food journal of what triggers my IBS and eat lots of green veggies and drink tons of water.
So that's been about 2 years and I have gotten better. I try to avoid fast greasy food, soda, cheese and I can not ever eat at On The Border. This place causes me to be in the bathroom for hours, even thinking about it makes me feel sick lol. I still don't have as many bowel movements as a "healthy" person but I have improved a lot. So I say all of that to say this. My acupuncturist said that my body is causing things to be "stagnant", things are not moving and flowing as they should. I shook my little head in agreement trying to remember the last time I pooped and the fact that I have not started one single period on my own since stopping birth control. He said my blood isn't flowing smoothly and he feels that stress/worry/anxiety is a huge reason why I'm having digestive and menstrual problems.
So we started the acupuncture, he put about 20 needles in me. I didn't feel a thing. Ok, that's not entirely true, I felt it a few times but it only felt like a small scratch. NO pain at all though. It was extremely relaxing and soothing. He focused on my spleen which is where worry is at. I was all about this-please extract the worry :) Once the needles were in I laid there for about 30 minutes and just closed my eyes and didn't think about anything. It was dark, just a little lamp on, warm and relaxed to "Chinese rock and roll" music as he called it.
Once I was finished, he took the needles out and we discussed herbs and brewing my own teas. I was very excited about this. He assured me that it would not taste good and probably will make my house smell too. I said that was fine with me. He wants me to come back twice a week for about 4-6 weeks. He said it would cost $80 a week. I told him that as much I wish I could, I couldn't afford that, who can??!?! So he asked me what would work for me and I compromised at $50-this also included my herbs and teas.
So here is my game plan. I feel like right now I really need to get my stress/worry/anxiety and digestive system in order. This is very important to my overall health. This should help also with getting my blood flowing and hopefully regulating my cycles and *fingers crossed* ovulation. For the months of June and July I am going to go a couple of times a month and start my herbs/teas. In August (if I'm not pregnant by then) I'm going to really jump in and we will focus on fertility. I remind myself that I am not infertile, just imbalanced. J and I have decided this is something that we really want to work and understand it will take effort and smart spending on our part. So from August to October we will focus greatly on getting me pregnant.
If by the end of Oct I'm still not pregnant, I'll most likely quit and just take a break from it all. Maybe by December or January 2012 I will start 50 mg of Clomid. Sorry this was so long, just wanted to give you a detailed summary. It was awesome and I can't wait to go back. My next appointment will be on Tuesday the 31st. I'll get my herbs and teas then and I'll let you know how that goes. I feel like I need a witch hat and big black kettle :) Thanks for all the well wishes and if you have any questions for me please feel free to ask!
Here is a brief list of some conditions that Acupuncture effectively treats:
- Stress/Anxiety
- Women’s health
- Infertility
- Menstrual Disorders
- Obstetrics & Gynecology
- Pain Management
- Headaches / Migraines
- Insomnia
- Psychological/Emotional Disorders
- Weight Reduction
- Gastrointestinal Disorders
- Sexual Dysfunction
- Addiction
- Alcohol, Nicotine, Drug etc.
- Allergies
- Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
- Colds and Flu’s
- Cosmetic Acupuncture
- Facial Rejuvenation
- Immune Disorders
- Internal Medicine
- Musculoskeletal Disorders
- Neurological Disorder
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Acupuncture today
Yep today is finally the day! I'm excited, nervous and hopeful all at the same time. It's a beautiful spring day here, sunny and 75. I plan on relaxing and enjoying the spring breeze through the windows.
I will also be playing this song all day long. I'll give you a full report on how it goes :)
I will also be playing this song all day long. I'll give you a full report on how it goes :)
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
STORMS!!!
Gotta love the Midwest storm season!!! This was the closest and scariest tornado experience I've ever had...and I've had a lot of them lol. The afternoon started off by J and I taking a motorbike ride out in the country. It was beautiful and like 85 degrees-that was a lot warmer than it was supposed to be.
It suddenly became very very dark-this is when I was sad I didn't have a camera with me :( It was so cool watching the storms roll in. Little did we know it was a huge tornado cell forming. We *barely* made it home before the rain started. Then about 3 minutes later it started to hail. Boys and girls, this was not your cute little "oh it's snowing in May" hail. This was HOLY SH****T IT'S RAINING BASEBALLS!!!
There were still ones bigger than this, J was running outside to grab these (don't worry he was wearing his bike helmet lol). It was incredible and terrifying all at the same time. Seeing the devastating disaster that recently happened in the south made me pretty afraid. I'm so used to tornadoes and storms that I'm not usually afraid. I'm not gonna lie-I did think for half a second "maybe the world really is going to end". The clouds were so eerie and all of a sudden they were swirling right above our house. J got some video on his cell phone but it doesn't do its justice. You should see the pics friends are posting on FB. I can not believe the tornado never touched down and was destructive. There is a ton of hail damage but that's about it. We were very lucky. It was so huge in the sky, we couldn't stop watching it instead of being smart and seeking shelter.
Anyway, that was our exciting night :) I'm off to bed now, big day tomorrow. My sister and I have a date in KC at Union Station to go to the Princess Diana exhibit. I'll try to take some pics of that and share with you, they'll even have her wedding gown there! Cannot wait-totally excited.
Take care my loves xoxo!
It suddenly became very very dark-this is when I was sad I didn't have a camera with me :( It was so cool watching the storms roll in. Little did we know it was a huge tornado cell forming. We *barely* made it home before the rain started. Then about 3 minutes later it started to hail. Boys and girls, this was not your cute little "oh it's snowing in May" hail. This was HOLY SH****T IT'S RAINING BASEBALLS!!!
There were still ones bigger than this, J was running outside to grab these (don't worry he was wearing his bike helmet lol). It was incredible and terrifying all at the same time. Seeing the devastating disaster that recently happened in the south made me pretty afraid. I'm so used to tornadoes and storms that I'm not usually afraid. I'm not gonna lie-I did think for half a second "maybe the world really is going to end". The clouds were so eerie and all of a sudden they were swirling right above our house. J got some video on his cell phone but it doesn't do its justice. You should see the pics friends are posting on FB. I can not believe the tornado never touched down and was destructive. There is a ton of hail damage but that's about it. We were very lucky. It was so huge in the sky, we couldn't stop watching it instead of being smart and seeking shelter.
Anyway, that was our exciting night :) I'm off to bed now, big day tomorrow. My sister and I have a date in KC at Union Station to go to the Princess Diana exhibit. I'll try to take some pics of that and share with you, they'll even have her wedding gown there! Cannot wait-totally excited.
Take care my loves xoxo!
Friday, May 13, 2011
Worst things to say to someone ttc (trying to conceive)
click here to read
I think my personal least favorite thing someone says to me is "you're still young" or "just relax".
First off, J and I have been married for 5 and a half years and have waited long enough, we are very ready for a family. We would like more than one kid but at the rate we're going...we'll be lucky to have just one.
Secondly, it's hard to relax knowing that my body continues to fail in the reproductive department. It's hard to relax knowing that after I have sex, my husbands "boys" have no where to go. They can swim all they want...they are not going to find the pot of gold under the rainbow.
I'm already on CD 26 for this cycle...again...no ovulation. WTFRIG??!?!?!?
So now that you know what I DON'T like to hear, here is what I DO like to hear.
"Bran, you're beautiful and will make a great mom someday soon"
"Bran, can I just hug you" (I would gladly say yes)
"You're right this does suck and it's not fair"
So, yeah. I don't need a lot. Just the feeling that someone is on my team and will hug and cry with me when I need them most. PCOS/Anovulation/IF is such a hard hard hard journey. Oh my, it hurts.
I think my personal least favorite thing someone says to me is "you're still young" or "just relax".
First off, J and I have been married for 5 and a half years and have waited long enough, we are very ready for a family. We would like more than one kid but at the rate we're going...we'll be lucky to have just one.
Secondly, it's hard to relax knowing that my body continues to fail in the reproductive department. It's hard to relax knowing that after I have sex, my husbands "boys" have no where to go. They can swim all they want...they are not going to find the pot of gold under the rainbow.
I'm already on CD 26 for this cycle...again...no ovulation. WTFRIG??!?!?!?
So now that you know what I DON'T like to hear, here is what I DO like to hear.
"Bran, you're beautiful and will make a great mom someday soon"
"Bran, can I just hug you" (I would gladly say yes)
"You're right this does suck and it's not fair"
So, yeah. I don't need a lot. Just the feeling that someone is on my team and will hug and cry with me when I need them most. PCOS/Anovulation/IF is such a hard hard hard journey. Oh my, it hurts.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Maybe next year
This was me 10 minutes ago...
I just went to the store to buy my beautiful sister a Mother's Day card and nearly had a melt down.
How pathetic.
Yes, I'm sad that I'm not a mom. How dare I. I'm sad that I'm not even close to being a mom. We have been trying to bake a muffin for 8 months and I haven't had one period on my own. I've had 2 periods but they were both induced with Provera. I haven't ovulated...not once. I haven't even had the opportunity to become a mom. "Maybe next year" is what I told myself as I sighed when I sat in my car to drive home.
Also, I've lost my mom. Not physical, but in every single other way possible. Her birthday was last month and it was really hard ignoring the day and not sending her a card or buying her a gift. This is so much more difficult though. It's Mother's Day, the day we honor and lavish our mom's with love and admiration. Nope, this isn't the year for that either. I've been dreading this Sunday for awhile now, I'm afraid I'm going to be a mess. It doesn't help that on facebook everyone is posting pics of their mom. Good for them, good for you. I'm happy for you, really. I'd never ever ever want anyone to experience what I did with my mom. I'm just jealous that I won't be changing my facebook photo to a picture of my mom.
Maybe next year.
I just went to the store to buy my beautiful sister a Mother's Day card and nearly had a melt down.
How pathetic.
Yes, I'm sad that I'm not a mom. How dare I. I'm sad that I'm not even close to being a mom. We have been trying to bake a muffin for 8 months and I haven't had one period on my own. I've had 2 periods but they were both induced with Provera. I haven't ovulated...not once. I haven't even had the opportunity to become a mom. "Maybe next year" is what I told myself as I sighed when I sat in my car to drive home.
Also, I've lost my mom. Not physical, but in every single other way possible. Her birthday was last month and it was really hard ignoring the day and not sending her a card or buying her a gift. This is so much more difficult though. It's Mother's Day, the day we honor and lavish our mom's with love and admiration. Nope, this isn't the year for that either. I've been dreading this Sunday for awhile now, I'm afraid I'm going to be a mess. It doesn't help that on facebook everyone is posting pics of their mom. Good for them, good for you. I'm happy for you, really. I'd never ever ever want anyone to experience what I did with my mom. I'm just jealous that I won't be changing my facebook photo to a picture of my mom.
Maybe next year.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Happy Birthday Luke!!!
Today, my sweet pup is 5 years old! I can't believe it, he has grown so fast. He really is the best dog in the world, we are so blessed. He is my kid, love love love him.
To many many more years Cool Hand Luke Leviathan, hugs and kisses and lots of scratches ::pup kiss::
To many many more years Cool Hand Luke Leviathan, hugs and kisses and lots of scratches ::pup kiss::
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